Inevitable always happens

[keefa]

Thanks Thornton. I appreciate what you are saying but it looks as though she wanted the hell out as quickly as possible.
I'm not feeling too down at the moment as some of the momentum from the last weeks GAL are still carrying me but I am feeling so many emotions.
It feels like she is being unfaithful over and over again even though it is clearly over. I can't help think about why she didn't even try to save our marriage, it makes my whole relationship less meaningful and belittles the 'us' I thought we were. This is what I am really struggling to come to terms with. It must have been a sham or a lie. I'm thinking about joining a workshop. Maybe some people just work through this stuff quicker than I ever imagined. My friend says its probably her way of GAL.
I am trying not to care and to detach but the truth is I care, I miss my wife. I loved her and just because she's gone, I just can't stop loving the wife I remember. It is scrambling my head if i'm honest.