KGirl, it sounds like you are doing ok. You are taking care of the basics, eating, cleaning, working. Your goals are reasonable and reachable. Hang in there, get your professional help and keep posting.
Do you have a clear picture of what it is you want in a relationship? Not necessarily a list, although some people find that helpful, but a vision. A mental image of a great day with someone. Find a quiet place, spend some time on this, let your mind drift to where ever it does, there's no right or wrong here. Imagine your perfect day, where are you, who are you with? Hold on to small details, he opens the door for you, puts his hand in the small of your back. Are you cooking together? At a street fair? What does he say? Spend some time on this and come back and tell me what you found out.
