Just putting my thoughts out here. My mind keeps going back to how H is just ok with all of this and how he can just remove me, someone he has spent the last 9 years with day in and day out, through everything. Its just so easy for him to turn away from a person who still loves him and wants to make it work. It's like he sees no value in us or me. All I ask is that he honor what we've had together and try. I'm confused but not sad right this second. Moreso just trying to figure it out which I'm told I never will. And that's scary.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
