Thank you for the positive feedback. It was a great day with my boys - it really was.
Tim - I think your analogy of the rope is great. I don't think I am that close to being at the end of my rope yet (in this particular case :-). But, I do feel like I am starting to understand what it will look like if we get divorced and I know that I can do it. Do I want to do it without H? Not yet.
Hope - I appreciate you weighing in on the DB coach. I may try it because "being friends' is the hardest line I am walking because I do have to interact with him about the kids. Interestingly enough, my H also seemed to be more in love with me when I wasn't the stay-at-home mom that put the kids and him before myself. When I was more selfish he seemed to be more interested in me. It's all so complicated isn't it?!
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16