Still hoping for progress

[daybyday]

Another crappy sunday. I'm not sure why these are so hard but they. The whole family is here but I see remnants around the house of the impending outcome of S. Items packed up here, some there. When I leave to go to store or something and come back, more stuff packed. It hurts like a hot poker in the gut.

She is so preoccupied with getting "her" apt.. She has always been a little self centered anyway but lately she is worse.

We did much more talking yesterday and she admitted that she felt like even as a kid that she never had her "own" things and that she had problems sharing. She says she is "[censored]#D up". I tried to make her feel better by saying "no more than anybody else".

I know I can't fix her. Only she can. But why does have to be at the cost of 27 years R and an intact fmily?

The selfishness seems almost incomprehensible.

I have some medical appt. that are concerning me also. She doesnt seem concerned enough to slow her roll. That also angers me to no end. One day she acts like she cares and is very engaging. The next day it seems like she regroups and puts her wall back up.

I did some thing, moved some furniture out so she could easier move, and not even a thank you. Sad.