So interesting week. I was supposed to see WW today but that didn't happen. More on that in a few. The interesting thing that happened was that I did not focus on seeing her at all this week. I even tried to focus and think about meeting up with WW, I could think about for a minute or two but then my mind would go else where. It was pretty incredible. Pretty much the exact opposite of post BD where I could not get my mind off of her.

I hadn't conversed with WW since Tuesday.

So last night I get this text:

WW: Tax papers in your mailbox.
Pinn: OK Thanks

I read that and was like WTH because it was so out of the blue. It didn't bother me but I was wondering what changed. I thought it could be two things. First, I had not spoken with her since Tuesday so she might have been upset at that. Second, my yoga instructor tags me in posts constantly on FB. I am sure she got wind of that. So it could have been that. (the yoga instructor has a big time crush btw, but I already told her that nothing was going to happen there... might have to switch classes).

WW: I felt like you felt obligated to let me go there so I just thought it would be easier to drop them off
Pinn: I didn't feel obligated... maybe some other time then
WW: I know but it was just that you were so against the idea at first so I felt a little uncomfortable like you didn't really want me to. I would definitely stop by sometime if you wanted.

Oh ok... now I see what is going on here. She wanted me to come out and say I want to see her... that's not going to happen. The whole point of this was me recognizing her desire to see the kitties and letting her do that.

Pinn: It wouldn't bother me... If I minded I wouldn't have offered... its ok... some other time when our schedules line up
Wife: Are you annoyed?

I am annoyed that you just asked me if I am annoyed... but prior to that I was not. Are you trying to make me annoyed? I can see how my text comes across as maybe being annoyed, but I really was not.

Pinn: No... not at all... it was going to be tough getting home in time anyway
WW: Oh Ok... don't feel like you need to pencil me into your busy schedule.

I felt like I had to lighten the mood a bit to end this so just replied with.

Pinn: Kitty1 is going to be disappointed though :-)

So that is that. I know the db'ing was not the best in this interaction. I'll give it a few days and process what to do. What I was hoping to get from seeing her is some direction on where things are going. I don't even care which way. If things looked positive then great, if she wanted to talk about moving toward D, then I am honestly fine with that too. I was hoping to gather a little info to see if we can get out of this limbo state... but I am still solidly there.

I feel detached though... I feel good. Not seeing WW in 7.5 months can do that.