Sounds like you've got a rough schedule in place for today which always helps me as I don't have to think about the next thing to do or have time to sit and think/dwell. And I'm so happy you are finding fulfillment in coaching and just know that you are making such huge, positive stamp in those kids' lives!
I'm just like you and at first, could not stand kids. Just super annoying lol. But when I got into my 30s, that feeling literally changed over night! And as Spark so eloquently put it, I think about how my ovaries are just withering away. Now all I think about lately is when I will get to have some munchkins of my own, who will I get to create and share all of this awesome love with?! H and I used to talk about how awesome us and our kids would be, how we'd interact with them, the kind of atmosphere we wanted to have at home - it was going to be so fun!
But I have hope that we will survive and thrive and get to have those kids that will carry our legacy. Just keep working to be the best you you can be :-)
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
