Looking for a Spark in the dark

[HopeRB]

I agree with broke, you are still sooooooo early in the process. Sometimes I think it's getting slightly easier with GAL and time, but then I find myself still waking up at all times of the night and walking back and forth across the apt, sitting on my side of the bed and crying. Also, 7.5 months and I still confine myself to my side of the bed, as if H will magically appear in his spot where he is supposed to be (which I like to think is in bed with me).

And ya, I also fear that with all this time, space and lack of contact that H will have too much pride or be embarrassed to come back.