I wish I could help. Maybe I am a lucky one that doesn't have dreams of S. I can only recall a few and they were nothing special so didn't effect me.

I don't like to just repeat it over and over, it's true though. Time. Give it time.

Remember. You are a Amazing person that deserves love, if our S can't see that then do they deserve us? I know I made mistakes and moving forward I will be sure to control those mistakes as will everyone else here that sees where they went wrong. Be it your own actions or allowing S actions

You are doing great, your young and sound like an amazing woman that any guy would be lucky to have in their life. If someone can't see that, it's their loss not yours.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.