Everything will work out in the end

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Oh Rouky I cry with you. I'm sure most of the people who follow you have misty eyes after reading your last post. As broke says you did nothing to deserve your fate. And you having stood for your family is something that you will always be able to take solace in. Unfortunately I doubt if you will truly grieve until the marriage is officially over. As much as I now dislike my ex I do still love her and probably always will. On the day my divorce is final I will bawl like a hungry baby. My goal now is to not completely break down in court. I wish that I was there to hold your hand but I recognize that you are truly alone in your grief.

As for any failure in DB you must accept that you are a human with deep emotions and attachment to someone who you spent so much time with and built so much with. For me it has become helpful to accept that most of the blame falls on my wife as she is the one who strayed and refused to work on our marriage. My peace lies with knowing that I gave everything I had to the marriage and to DBing.

I love you Rouky and would give anything to lift your pain and I hope you know what your words have meant to me in the last year. No comfort for you I know but you are always in my heart and there is a least one man on this earth that knows what a catch you are. God will bring peace to us and will show us the way forward. He forgives us so we must forgive our spouse and also forgive ourselves. I think that is where the healing will come from and I pray that we have the strength to reach for it. Have a great week Rouky and stay strong!