That's always the way it goes isn't it? You get up and feel great the something sets you off. I feel for you.

I don't know if you mean that you wasted 20 years or are hurting, you have a son from that 20 years and though the memories hurt at times you wouldn't be who you are if you hadn't experienced those years.

Make tomorrow a great day. Make new stronger memories.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.