Hang in there, weekends are really tough for me too. They give me a lot of time to be alone with my thoughts.
I hate this as much as you do. It's so hard to wrap our minds around it isn't it?
Keep working towards dropping that rope. You are in withdrawal right now, very similar to coming off drugs. It takes time.
In regards to what H is thinking, who knows. It's all mind reading at this point. Try not to let yourself get sucked into that obsessive vortex. Easier said than done, I know.
And you aren't a sad pathetic girl, Sparks. You have a big heart. And big hearts can get broken. But big hearts also get experience the deepest love there is.
If things with W don't work out for me, I will be looking for a girl that has a heart like yours. I won't settle for less.
What do you have planned for tomorrow? Can you get to the gym?
