Maybell XXXVIII: Settling In

[Maybell]

I've had a low-grade cold all week. New Guy hasn't been paying attention to my well-being, but he's been asking for some input from me on his stuff. I'm feeling a little twitchy about it. It's like he pokes me because he wants me to fix things but he doesn't even ask if I'm feeling all right. I appreciate that he's talking to me (really, mostly texting me, which I've objected to...) about the things on his mind, but I am tired and coughing painfully and he knows that but it slips his mind.

I feel like things like this happen with him periodically. He's amazing when I'm with him, but less amazing when we're apart. I don't have to chase him down for attention but he gets super moody sometimes.

I don't know how much I should let this bother me. I had visions of being cherished after Mr. Fantastic. I don't feel cherished. But he's very thoughtful other times, and way more helpful than Mr. F. Also more fun. The trouble is, I'm getting really emotionally attached. I'm not sure there's a point to saying I want more attention if he doesn't want to give it on his own. But I know he cares about me and hasn't given any indication he wants to go elsewhere.

I didn't invite him to spend time with me & the kids this weekend because I don't want to crowd the kids with him, and because I'm feeling uncertain about how we are.

I could wring my hands over this and say "this, but that..." But what it comes down to is, I don't feel well, and after all those years of Mr. Fantastic not caring if I was sick, I really be with someone who would show me that my well-being matters to him. And New Guy didn't even ask when he texted me tonight.

Have I chosen another Fantastic guy?