" Ironically a spouse being wayward often makes it easier to stand, it adds gravitas and a focus"
Yes. It is a clean cut crossing of a boundary. easy definition. Unable to deny. (Although more of a sharp pain)
The not knowing is really mentally draining. (Dull, nagging pain) I too have noticed that the few posters on here that do not know, really have trouble moving forward on a path. I am going to stop asking husband about other women, because even when he tells me no..It feels good temporarily, but I don't believe him days later. I have to stop caring. I have been trying to think of the all things I find unattractive about him.
It's like, my future is all to be determined by him. Thi is very unsettling. I know rationally that anyone reading this is saying..."no. You do what you want. It has nothing to do with him. Make adventures for yourself, have fun without him. Your happiness should not be dictated by whether or not you get back with your husband. Go out and have fun and GAL". But for some reason, he is constantly a thought.
I am hoping this will become easier when I feel better as well. I know this is a major hindrance. Right now my chest hurts especially at the end of day. I am so tired. I was out of breath for 30 minutes after doing light exercise. i have to go back to MD. This is the never ending virus and its making it hard to get out of the slump I am in. But at least I know eventually it will get better.
