Looking for a Spark in the dark

[Sparkls]

I did have some fun with my friends. Too much food, good company. But my subconscious apparently decided to pay me back for it. I ended up having the worst night sleep I've had almost since DDay. Just constant dreams about H and I'd wake up in the middle, turn over, fall back asleep and end up in some new hell of a dream. It's going to be a long day, at least I don't really have much to do.
Just really sitting here with a profound sense of hopelessness. I know we've all been there, and maybe I need to go read some reconciliation stories to remind me that things can change cause right now, I just don't see any light at the end of the tunnel. Another down in the roller coaster.