Cali thanks for the update. I'm really proud of you. You have certainly done a hero's job here ... now it's time for you to find out what's next for you. While none of us would have wished this for you, I am excited about what the future holds for you. Yes, you will have a lot of healing to do and I have no doubt that when you are ready you will begin that part of your journey.

I don't think it's softening to pray to God for her. One thing my H's grandfather always said is that forgiveness is everything. He was right. When we don't forgive it not only keeps us tied to the person, it causes more damage to ourselves. I know it's way too early here to be talking about that but file it away for later. You've gone through so much. The last thing you need is more damage from this. xoxoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver