Middle of the night here in the Midwest. Just spent a wonderful day with my family. Had a thought about my H. I was thinking just how pathetic I feel because my H didn't seem to find me worthy enough to be faithful to. Then, I realized that HE is the pathetic one and I feel sorry for him. We were so blessed with two beautiful boys and no major problems to speak of until he allowed himself "to fall for the OW". We had typical communication issues after being together 25 years, but truly nothing that I was concerned about.
Vanilla wrote something about our WAS's feeling empty and finding things to fill themselves up with. For me, that's relationships with other people - my H, my family, my boys, my friends, all of you. I truly believe my H is lost, searching for things to fill him up but looking in all the wrong places. He is empty and I'm glad that I'm not him. I'd hate to be him if he ever comes out of the "affair fog" and figures out what he's truly given up and lost.
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16