Looking for a Spark in the dark

[TimR]

Friends who have not gone through what we are, who are not dedicated to a relationship like we are do not understand. I cannot tell you how many people told me "what they would have done" including burning stuff in the yard, kicking her a$$ out to the curb, posting on FB and so on and so on. I got to the point thinking "is there something wrong with me that I still love her?" Well maybe there is but it is my life and it is my heart and I cannot just can turn it off. I said "till death due us part" and "for better or worse." Well we are in the worse! Maybe some day I will drop these bags of bricks and keep on walking but until then they are my bricks and I will carry them no matter how much they scar me.