Still NC - Trying to move forward

[TimR]

Yeah I cannot see how it will last too long but what if it does. But what if there are other complications too? Ugh, I need to not think about it.

You are right I will find someone else... or will I? I worry that I am too damaged to be wanted by anyone or want anyone. I have never had anxiety like this before. Which reminds me S told me tonight he keeps waking up in the night too. He looked so depressed and I think he wanted to tell me something tonight but wouldn't or couldn't. I think he cried a bit on the way home tonight.