Looking for a Spark in the dark

[broke]

Sounds like the perfect start to a fun evening!

[TimR]

I cant say WW took weird stuff, she left weird stuff. She really left a dresser full of her clothes and a bunch of other clothes. She did however, take all the important stuff. The thing that really makes me sad is she left any pic I was in with her here and our wedding album.

Hey enjoy your night, you deserve it!!

[Sparkls]

Yeah he didn't take any pic of us. Most of them are digital anyway. Everything important I had packed for him, though he did leave one important document.

He's a pod person. That's the best way to explain it.

[TimR]

I feel the same way about WW. She gave me her dog tonight bc she keeps pooping on the floor. The kids were very sad but when I showed up WW was as happy as could be. I tried to be light and breezy to but I don't think I was good as I could be cause I know OM has been there.

BTW you should be drinking with friends and sparkling!

[Thornton]

Have one for me sparky!

[Sparkls]

I am! We're playing cards against humanity. Friends are good, but my mind wonders more with alcohol.

[TimR]

Lol drink up. I think I would have gone to the bar tonight if it was not for my long drive in the morning. But I will have fun and maybe go out tomorrow.

[Sparkls]

Sadly my friends just don't really get it though. They are telling me to officially dump his ass and move on and 3 months is a fresh start and blah blah. And it's like, you guys, he's been in my life for a third of my entire existence, it's not that simple. And I've been in his for a quarter, I don't know how he's just cutting me out and walking away. I just don't understand how you do that to someone.

[TimR]

Friends who have not gone through what we are, who are not dedicated to a relationship like we are do not understand. I cannot tell you how many people told me "what they would have done" including burning stuff in the yard, kicking her a$$ out to the curb, posting on FB and so on and so on. I got to the point thinking "is there something wrong with me that I still love her?" Well maybe there is but it is my life and it is my heart and I cannot just can turn it off. I said "till death due us part" and "for better or worse." Well we are in the worse! Maybe some day I will drop these bags of bricks and keep on walking but until then they are my bricks and I will carry them no matter how much they scar me.

[Thornton]

Your friends want you to feel better, because they love you.

But only you can chose your path because only you will have to live with the consequences of your decisions.

Follow your heart, Sparks.

You'll know when it's time for you to move on.

It's still early days for you. So many things can change.

In the meantime, be in the now, enjoy your friends, and forget about H for a few hours. You can worry about him tomorrow.