Looking for a Spark in the dark

[Sparkls]

Well if ever there was a sole crushing experience, that was it.

He ended up coming early because he got a ride from work and then a ride back to where he was staying (so much for the bike ride, and the dogs were here, but it didn't end up being a thing. I was worrrying myself over nothing there it would seem).

But light and breezy it was not. He wouldn't even look at me. He kept asking permission to take things (I, of course, said yes to all of them) and I sat at the table reading a comic book for school.
Few exchanges yielded him telling me out of the blue that he's planning to move back to CO in april he's thinking. He asked me about my IC, I said it was going well and just left it at that. He kept playing with the dogs, they've really missed him (other reason I didn't want them here was so they could just get used to him not being around.) I asked him how his friend in CO was. He said he was well, that he showed him around his job and thinks he could get him hired there (I think this is unlikely but didnt' say that)
He spent a large amount of the time not looking at me, but looking at his phone, texting people.
I did end up asking him when his ride would be here cause I had somewhere to be and he moved everything onto the porch and I left after telling him that if he finds there's anything else he needs to just let me know and that "Ill see you later" (I really didn't know how to end it). He did compliment how nice the house looked and that the new shower curtain was nice.
There was no R talk. I had asked him a few weeks ago if he was ready to talk, and he brought that up this time asking what I wanted to talk about and I just said nothing.
Only upside to this whole thing is that he didn't look great. But I can't help but feeling like there's just no hope. He won't look at me, he was on his phone the whole time. He's asking me when I'd like the rest of his stuff out, he's planning on moving across the country.
I just dont understand how he can just walk away from everything.
I have friends coming over for margaritas but right now, I"m just feeling devastated.