Two months ago, I confronted my wife about her distance and what was wrong. After digging...."im not there with you anymore" and eventually "there's someone else."
A thousand things have transpired since then....but, well nothing has really changed. Fact is she is still involved (at an unknown level) with my married neighbor. She spends all of her time at the gym (where he is) or hiding around the house to text with him. She knows I know this but is in that addiction stage, plus she is taken care of at home and has her cake and eats it too.
I am a Christian and my relationship with God has become amazing through this....matter of fact, He's the only thing helping me keep my mouth shut and hold on. I do truly believe that my responsibility is 100% to be a good husband and father to my 2 stepchildren 10/14. That said, keeping my sanity is a minute by minute battle.
My concern (one of many) is this. If I begin to 180 all of the things in my life with my wife, how am I fulfilling the role of the Christian husband who (for better or worse) is to love his wife sacrificially? I know that this is likely contrary to 180 all the things I do for her. I'm basically taking care of everything at home while she has to worry about nothing...and I feel kinda like Im enabling her to do what she wants. I mean, would you change if you knew you were taken care of, you kids and mom were taken care of, your dinner and breakfast were always ready for you and your back was rubbed every night until you fell asleep?
Much more for details on my issue, but I haven't a clue how this blogging thing really works...so, advice...direction...criticism???
