I have not been on here for a while and I'm so sorry I didn't respond to you lovely people who offered kind words and great advice. There have been some major life-changing events going on with my family which I can't go into just now. My last thread has disappeared.
Raliced - nothing settled yet between H and me, unbelievable after more than 2 years.
Sunny - thanks for the welcome and glad to see you moving on.
kml - thanks for the sound advice, I so appreciate it and was great to hear your perspective on things.
But something strange has happened and I'm not sure what to think. You may remember in my previous posts that I often mention how I am still so attracted to H and long to reach out and touch him. I hadn't seen him since Christmas and he came round last week to talk to me about the settlement. Except instead of being full of anger and impatience to get it all sorted he said he is not in so much of a hurry now. He is still living with OW. He chatted for ages, was in no hurry to leave in fact it was me who told him I had to go as I was meeting friends. Before he left he pulled me into an embrace. It was totally unexpected. He then left the room and came back in pulled me close to him again and we kissed. It just felt wonderful.
Afterwards I felt dizzy. I'm pretty sure he felt something too, but is he just testing the waters? Is this his way of saying sorry for what's happened? I have no idea. I said I wasn't expecting that and it caught me off-guard and he said me too.
It's all I can think about. When he was close to me all I could think of was how much I still love him. I feel very foolish as I was doing so well and can finally see a happy future for myself without him.
He has never shown me any emotion or tenderness since he left. Not once.
I didn't get a chance to ask why he's not in a hurry to get this all finalized.
What do you think I should do next?
Me - 44 Husband - 47 D20, S18 BD - Aug 2013 Moved out - Jan 2014 OW discovered Jan 2014
