I had DivorceCare last night and the topic was anger.
I've had little bouts of anger here and there but I don't think I've fully crossed over into anger, yet.
I've been feeling a little sad at times and then numb. I wonder if my Anti-D's have fully kicked in. It's been about 6 weeks so I should be at the therapeutic level now.
Lately I've been watching a lot of TED Talks on Youtube. For those of you that aren't familiar, I encourage you to check them out. Really good stuff.
As for W, still NC and I have no idea what she is doing or thinking. I'm slowly detaching and thinking about a future without her. Sometimes I honestly don't think how I could go on without her. And other times, I envision myself with another person who is willing to put as time and energy into a R as I am.
I miss W, terribly. But I'm starting to wonder how much she loved me to begin with. Perhaps due to her issues, she isn't capable of love?
