Hi M ... xoxoxo here is a special spew apron to help with the mess ...
I know for me, I def. go to a place of thinking of all the bad stuff, mostly when I've been so hurt that I can't stand any more in that moment. I have often wondered if I am starting to re-write history and try to stay ruthlessly honest about it, because I think it's a trap I could easily fall into.

i think the old marriage isn't something many of us want back, but I would still like to explore a new marriage with the same husband, don't know if that's possible. anyway, just my $.02

xoxoxoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver