Maybell, you are a task driver smile But I need that. There's not really anyone in my life (besides me, I guess) telling me to pull it together in any concrete away. Even at work no one is giving me anything to do right now so I need to come up with my own initiatives... wayy too much time to laze off and obsess at a time like this.

Things I did well today:
-Successful meeting/interaction with a student. She came in to talk about switching out of the major I advise, and said "I'm really excited about switching to this other major... but... I almost didn't want to because you wouldn't be my advisor anymore!" Reassured her we could still talk about general stuff whenever she wanted.
-I made dinner (as opposed to cereal... or pizza). OK so it was frozen fish fillets that I turned into fish tacos but still real food.
-Wrote out a long explanation of a process that was well received and understood by some faculty (they usually don't understand things I'm explaining to them)
-I went through an exercise I found online on "owning your own and letting others own theirs - transforming beliefs process". Tagline: This process is ideal for any situation where you're using faulty reasoning to take ownership of other people's feelings and behavior. If you're "blaming you" for something this process is especially relevant. - yep, sign me up. Did the whole exercise, it was informative.

That's all I've got right now. I guess this shows me that I spent wayy too much time slacking off today and not being motivated, coming up with things to do. I did meet with 3 students today but nothing particularly exceptional except for the one I noted above. I mean, I did what I was supposed to do and answered their questions, so I guess that's good?

.... I didn't cry today, does that count? smile One of my friends sat my butt down virtually yesterday and gave me a hard talk: yes, I may have done some not so nice things and I can own those (like bringing up relationship issues via text or telling someone they were being sh*tty in response to him saying he lied to me...) but at the end of the day people fight, people are mean to each other sometimes, but plenty of people don't leave their partner over a fight or some terse words. Believing "I can't bring up things that are bothering me or get upset because my partner will leave" is a pretty ridiculous belief once I identified what the actual belief was behind things.


Me:30 H:29, no kids
T:12, M:4 (when D was final)
12/13: "Don't think I want to be M anymore"
6/14: Separated (I move)
1/15: H filed for D
5/15: D final