my wife can't decide (II)

[WillDo]

I was very direct in words stating to her that She should not contact OM by any means. And the consequence;I left that open ended. I have read your Mr. Nice Guy thread and totally see myself. Though I am who I am.

Again every week I have been on business trips. Less contact but are how we used to be limbo but communicating. Still sleeping in a different room. She has asked if I wanted her to sleep tbere for a while and I said no. I am sure it woukd be used against me later on. Counselling delayed due to my trip. Next session will be a one on one. I will talk with the counselour mainly on what I should do.

The stigma of depressiin is awful. Together we watched Stephen Frys series on BBC about bipolar and it highlighted the fact it is a disease but W has been seeing it as me and the problem of the marriage. This hurts so so so deep. The trust is shattered. Really feel hopeless but forcing the techniques I leanred to cope with the bad feeling.