Looking for a Spark in the dark

[Sparkls]

Today is definitely more of an angry day. Pissed that he's being so dumb. Like, he's really throwing away everything I have to offer for this?! I'm not the one who changed, he did. And now I'm left dealing with the consequences of him being too much of a coward and weakling to just use his f*cking words like a grown ass adult. But that's the thing: he's not being an adult. He's reverted to his 19 year old self. And that's what got him thrown in jail last time so I really don't want to be hitched to that wagon.
Whenever I explain the situation to someone else, everyone always says hes just not good enough for me. And the reality is I was always pushing him to be his better self because it does exist in him but somewhere in the last year or so, he started hanging out with sh*tty people who didn't expect him to be better and he just started to resent that I did. Until he decides he actually wants to be that better person, I don't want him back.

I'm going to try and find a friend to hang with my pups. Say they're having a puppy play date if he asks. I just don't want to deal with it.