I almost slept through the night! That's a huge deal for me lol.
Lack of sleep compounds my depression and anxiety so I am so thankful to almost get 7 hours.
I felt a little surge of anxiety this morning if I'm honest with you. All this time that has passed with NC, I don't see how we'll ever come back from it. We are literally pitch black NC.
I liked something Broke had posted on her thread about her H not stringing her along, that she was, in fact, stringing herself along.
I think that's what I'm doing. I'm stringing myself along, hoping that W will wake up and see a guy that was willing to walk through fire and brimstone to make things work with her.
I know detachment is a process, and I'm working on it. But man alive, this is one of the hardest things I've ever done. To be able to keep getting up in the morning and trudging through the pain is exhausting.
I know God has a plan. He needs me to change. And he is aligning the moon and the stars for me. I just have to keep the faith that no matter what happens, he has my best interest in mind.
