In House S (7)

[Ojap]

I think the advice from Vapo is sound, Vice.

It is SO counterintuitive...but all of us have GOT to DETACH from our W, WW, WAW, WAH, etc.

I have found that I am increasingly more 'myself' and happy when I try to develop the 'independent' attitude that is going to insulate me from her every 'word' and 'deed'.

I know that it, in now way, takes away the sting of something like last night's incident...but reading the stories of those on this board stands as proof that we can, and will move on.

Basically...I look at it like I will NO LONGER allow her to control my emotions. I am so SICK of letting her actions and moods dictate my ability to find some joy. It was/is sucking the life out of my ability to provide, my ability to be an amazing dad, a good son, and friend to those around me. Screw that...I can't fix her anyway!

Sometimes it just helps me to nut up, put on some strong music, scream 'F that!' and pour myself into the lives of those who DO want and LOVE me. Now.