Maybe I am that to them but I know that I have much more to offer and I had offered them much more than that.

I am a work in progress and I realise that I try too hard to please people. Because I was always expected to be nice as a girl. I bend over backwards, sacrifice my needs because I just don't know how to have healthy boundaries and say no.

I am now learning to say no more and more often without feeling like I am the meanest biatch in the world. Both personally and professionally. I am also learning not to take things too personally. Realise that this is also about drawing boundaries.

I realised that I have drawn my boundaries so big and wide that all and sundry are included too much in my life, so much so that I don't have the energy and niceness to give to the people who really matter in my life.

Work is also a very easy thing to bury myself in. I have to stop taking the easy way out and start doing things that are unpleasant, uneasy but necessary.

Takeovers for my next R, but really for the rest of my life.

Good thing is that I am getting more and more chillaxed. I still do the dizzying Chicken Little scurrying around, but I catch myself and stop more quickly than before.

You can call me Dory/ Grl.

As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"

It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.