Ah, thanks Guys xx RD, I don't think I'm that brave really. I think I'm a bit of a 'runner' and it is more comfortable for me not to see H. I think I'd be a big scaredy and fall all to bits if I did have to see him. Plus, I think I'm pretty lucky in that we don't have much contact and what we do is pretty pleasant in the main. I notice if I push a little on something, I get some tetchy kick back, so I've learned to sit back and let things unfold.

MLeigh and Bright, thanks for your comments about 'the stuff in the case.' I had a burst of activity on that and feel happy with the stuff that has gone to charity - a bit lighter. I'm sure I'll have another go at some more stuff soon.

Pink, thanks for thinking I have grace. I think I've just reached a point where I'm truly letting go. H is clearly still together with OW, and seems set on finalising the D. I've accepted that. I have my plan - no dating in 2016 - and the door remains open a tiny chink. After that I'll review. TBH, I don't really feel like 'standing' anymore. I feel I have little love for H and can't really imagine us together again. But I also accept, I'm operating in face of zero interest and encouragement from him....and if that ever changed - IDK.

Nice Guy at work is somewhere on the scene still. We are friendly and he seems a little interested still. I don't know his D circumstances. Only that he has been D 1-2 years now and his ex is dating someone who drives a fancy car. It appeals to me that he hasn't jumped into a new R yet. I know some of the ladies at work are hoping he'll get fixed up. Again, I'm working on logic on this one and accepting it's too early a stage for me just yet.

Other than that, I'm still under the weather and have drawn back from activities for a couple of days. I get fairly regular throat problems (linked to stress I think) where I completely lose my voice. It's like an infection flares up and when it does, it's pretty frustrating and there seems nothing to do but rest. I am working tomorrow though - but will try not to speak much!

Thanks for dropping by and posting my friends xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus