Back from the gym and worked out really angry and really hard.
I love the anger, it's such a relief from the pain.
But now, there's an empty feeling. It's been a month since I've seen or spoken to W. I miss her like crazy.
I've been trying to think about all the sh!tty things she's done. The lies, the betrayal. I often wonder exactly when her feelings shifted for me and when did she officially start "acting" like she loved me. I know, all mind reading and it does me no good.
It [censored] not knowing all the answers to the questions in my mind.
Can someone tell the ride operator I want off this roller coaster?
