Looking for a Spark in the dark

[Sparkls]

Spent the day cleaning the house a bunch. Much needed because one of the damned dogs (I have 4 mind you that I am now taking care of by myself) has peed somewhere.
Its amazing how much better it feels to just sit in a clean house. Also washing the comforter on our bed for the first time since he left. I clean to keep myself busy. I have so much more energy since being on AD, which is lovely. But I'd also be lying a little if I said that I also wanted the house to be clean for when a$$hat comes to get his stuff on friday.
Note to self: work on detaching better. I'm not very good at it.

As I was walking my dogs, one of them did something really cute and I just had this thought of how could he just walk away from these guys. Like, he's raised two of these dogs since they were puppies. I didn't give him a chance to take any of them. And now that I've gotten to taking care of them myself and know I can do it, I don't think I"m going to. He works a menial job that barely pays enough to afford an apartment, he doesn't drive, has no car, and neither does the OW. If the dog got sick or needed to go to the vet, he couldn't get him there. I just had to drop $500 on dental work for one of them. There's no way I'm letting one of my fur babies go to that situation. I'm sure I'll come across as trying to punish him if he ever does try and claim the dog but frankly, I don't care. We can address it again when he demonstrates some more responsibility. I don't know how you guys with kids do it. These are dogs, given they've been in our family for 6 years, but they're still just dogs. But they're our dogs. Sigh. stupid waywards. *end rant*