Now, the real work begins...Part III

[broke]

Thank you, everyone. I can't tell you all how much I appreciate your support. This board is truly a lifeline for me.

I'm not really sure why today is such a bad one. Having to move all my charges to my own credit card was another reminder that we are splitting up. But, maybe it was more his response to my email that did it. I've realized that he seems so indifferent. Instead of noticing my positive changes and GALing, it's almost like he's happy I'm moving on because it lets him off the hook for what he's done. And he's generally happy, too, because of his infatuation with the OW. And he's so NICE to me, which shouldn't make me crazy but it does. Like, he can be himself because he's moved on and it's almost like he feels sorry for me. It's unnerving that he doesn't feel sad after breaking up our marriage and 25-year R.

Anyway, I'm so very grateful for all of you. Thank so very much for reaching out, sharing your stories and trying to make me feel better. I know I'm going to get through this. I just wish I could make the pain go away faster for the kids and i. I promise the pity party is over for the day. I'm dragging myself out of this right now. Thanks.