Where will we go from here

[TimR]

Ojap, thanks you hit the nail on the head. Was the baby mine or not?? I kills me further to think that it was not mine and I was the fool who did not recognize prior As.

My WW accused me of being distant. I would ask how I could not be, my first true love I caught cheating, within months my father caught my mother, when I finally open up and find the one person I absolutely trust she has an abortion and then an A. How can I not have a wall around my heart. This stuff doesn't just leave you it forms who you are... and well before I had major trust issues, IDK that I will ever be able to trust again.

All I can say is each time WW gives me venom she is helping me erase the good memories and getting me closer to the point I do no longer care or the emotion I have left for her is only resentment.

Needless to say with all the S13 threats this week and then the text today like she didn't just humiliate me yesterday, right now I only have anger for her. I am going to swallow it right now and let it out in the gym or at practice but that anger can strangle any love left in me.