Looking for a Spark in the dark

[Sparkls]

In my head I know you guys are right. And I'm going to keep telling myself that over and over and over between now and then. And who knows, maybe I'm making this out in bad light when in reality he wants to see me and is using "getting his stuff" and an excuse (unlikely but who knows).

It's weird cause it feels like I have all the time in the world and no time at all. Because in 2 and a half weeks, I find out where I'm doing residency and will be moving in May/June. And I just don't know how there's really any hope of any sort of R if there isn't some sort of progress in the next 3 months and I know 3 months really isn't that long in the world of this sort of thing.