So W finally moved to her apartment on Sunday night and moved her stuff out yesterday. I have had my kids with me, they go to her tomorrow afternoon until Saturday morning when I get to pick them up again and have them for the following 5 days. So to begin this separation, I will have the kids for 8 out of 10 days, made sure to make it harder on her at the start. She hasn't seen or heard from them since Sunday afternoon.
The last words I had with her were the plans I had for this year as a family, the things I will still do with the kids, plans I know she would have wanted to do. She had tried to say sorry but again didnt want to say what for. She also said she didnt know who to trust.
Struggled a bit yesterday when I got home to find her stuff gone but focused on my kids. Know it will be hard tomorrow night not having them here but will hit the gym. Friday i will also keep myself busy as W took D3 chest of drawers with her, so will go get her a new one. D3 was of course a bit upset that her room had been changed.
Now I am moving into dark mode as much as possible, will have to only see her every other Saturday when I pick up the kids.
A friend told me that over lunch one day recently with my W that I was a topic of conversation. She said that she got the impression that W had been impressed with the differences in me. Also, said she got the impression that there was an element of attraction from what W was saying. I'm not going to raise any hopes or change the fact i'm going to go dark. I have plans with new friends and training for my half marathon that will keep me busy for the days I dont have the kids.
Still working on locking up my feelings for now, but getting there.
