I really feel for you. Its been 10 months since WAS left, the first 6 were agony I suffered like never before, the loss of someone you have known and loved for 30 years is cruel, I could not sleep, I was distraught depressed and ashamed, my world was gone.
The last three months I have practiced the GAL system, and it has dragged me out of that hole I was in, my children and a couple of lady friends have brought me back to life again, and I have just about been successful in dropping the rope!
I am at the stage now where I have started to question wether I even want her back, she just took off and did not make any effort to work on it, she just said I could not change, she had issues herself but did not think she should have to work on them because that was just who she is, and she should be free to just be herself and you cant be married and do the things she wanted to do, so she left.
Too bad what it has done to the family, but its ok cause she is entitled to individual happyness, well thats what a councilor friend at the gym told her, too bad for her husband and children!
Anyway hang in there the pain decreases and you start to realise there is nothing you can do about them, your not particularly on their radar at this time, they have detached from you and are pursuing their happyness, so you need to do the same.
Some times I wonder if its destiny and its just ment to be, there could be someone else who comes into your life and makes you happier than you have ever been, not saying to give up on your M but just work on you.
Your a person who deserves to be happy you did not ask for this to happen, it was not your choise, so get out there and start to find things and people that can restore your zest for life!


H 50
W 46
T 31
M 24
EA 11.11.15
PA not sure.
Dx3
Separated 5.12.15 (not legally)