Too Much Time Is Passing By

[HopeRB]

Thanks for the support Tim and broke. Even from the time when this all started, I've been able to keep a nice distance from him and I've become more patient and able to be still as time progresses. So it doesn't kill me to not contact him. I just really want to.

And I think what also stops me is knowing that he isn't really thinking of me and he's just moving on with his life so maybe I should do what he's doing and move forward. Maybe I should stop being silly and compartmentalize like he does. I also just remembered him saying something like, "I don't want this to be over either," or something to that effect. It was after him telling how much he cared for me and how he wants me to come to him if I ever need anything and know that he's there to support me and help me with anything I need in life, and that he just wants me to be ok and happy. When all I want to scream out is, "Well why can't you do all those things as my H and come home?!"

Sigh, I don't want a D because I am still madly in love with this man. But at this point, not sure if/when I'll have kids or get that kind of connection with someone. And I need to be over him in order to get those things. I know good things are ahead but when I deal with the reality, I get discouraged b/c I know that it's going to be a long, less-traveled road ahead.