Still NC - Trying to move forward

[G8r]

I hear you SparkSB. I don't really know what sign will tell me that it's time to give up and walk away but I will tell you that I was ready to give up a few times when I felt that God was telling me not to give up. I've got your back. The most vivid example happened a couple of weeks back. I was fed up with my WW and was using her BS lines about not caring and never loving against her. I was completely sick of her nonsense and was about to open a can of texting whoop a$$ when my phone died on me. I tried to turn it back on but it didn't turn on so I figured I'll go charge it and text her a bit later. A short time later (before I could charge it) my phone started dinging. It was my WW, she hadn't finished letting me know how awful I am. My only explanation ia that the Man upstairs didn't want me to send the text I was about to send so I erased it and never sent it. Ever since then, I have become much better at ignoring her passive aggressive and "bait" texts. I still don't know if things will work between us but I feel like I have some help from God to get me through this one way or another.

Back to your question, I think knowing it's the end will be kind of like when I had to say good bye to my pet dog about 7 years ago. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do and I was dreading that day all the way between August when he lost use of his rear legs (but still had a real zest for life, just couldn't move much) until the end in December. I knew he was steadily deteriorating and one day I came home and I "knew" that it was time to say goodbye to a dear friend that I had for 11 years. I still miss him and it is bringing tears to my eyes as I write (tears that I can't seem to muster at this time for my WW). My point is that it will be intuitive. I suspect that you and I as well as the others on this board will just "know" when it's time.

I wish you well on your journey. Vaya con dios.