One of the greatest gifts of BD and DB'ing was having to make that choice. Was having to develop the skill to make that choice. The hard fought, tear driven, gut wrenching choice that I am going to have to find happiness in the face of losing the love of my life. The impossible choice. The choice I swore could never be made and anyone who asked me to could go f*ck themselves. They didn't know how much I loved my W. They didn't know how hard I fought to be with her. There was no happiness without her.
But they were right. There is happiness without her. There is joy without her. There is laughter without her. There is love without her. All of them can live side by side with the heartache of missing her, it's not one or the other. It's in spite of. And in addition to. And then some day, that joy is going to slowly edge that pain and heartache to the side, inch by inch. But only if you first let them live next to each other.
This is beautiful....thank you so much for sharing this. It brought tears to my eyes and hope to my heart.
M 44 H 46 M 20yrs T 25 yrs S15 S12
ILYBINILWY 7/18/15 Move to MBR 9/8/15 Physical Separation 10/10/15 Suspect A 8/2015 Confirm A 12/27/15 D filed by H 2/2/16
