Well if there is someone, I would have spotted it by now. It's no longer that important anymore. If she was cheating it would make my decisions and feelings easier.
DbD, you and sandi are right in that I would just be a shoulder to cry on when things don't go her way. She had also rewritten history and made out that the marriage was a lie and she only finds negative things to say. I am leaving as I want the kids to stay in their home and school. She would be happy to move away to a cheaper area and screw the kids lives up....but she could be bluffing. My rights and money in the house are secure. The court has accepted my terms so I can give my w space and I can get on and db.
She is adamant right now with divorcing me. She is damaged from what I put her through. But I cannot wait around like last time. I have too much to do and will not suffer like that again. If she wants to work on the marriage then great but I will not beg. Last time she was seeing other guys. This time is different. She wants to play at being a single mom to prove how she can do it. She doesn't however like the thought of being a divorcee and remarrying in her 40's with two daughters as bridesmaids!
I am concerned though that she will still try and control me when I leave. I want to help out but know that I must back off and let her deal with everything.
Maybe I too will eventually detach and see her differently....
I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?
