Too Much Time Is Passing By

[HopeRB]

So good Sparks and broke. Yes, they are empty and looking for the next thing to fill them up, and in our case, elsewhere. I just reflected with a friend on how my emotions are just on the fritz and I'd like some balance.

And I've also been trying to figure out what to do since I've seen my H this past weekend. Trying to figure out if I should reach out to follow up on something we spoke about. It could go either way: I could reach out about logistics or reach out to see how something at work went (especially since he's said in the past that I didn't support him in his career). But like I've said, when I affirm him or say something nice, he just ignores me. I've gotten used to that level of rejection though it hurts.

I kind of just want to wait for him to initiate. As mentioned before, in the past, he would come out of hiding wherever the heck he is and reach out, and we'd do the nice but random texting thing. Then he would retreat back into his cave. Maybe staying dark and allowing him to initiate after he's gotten a glimpse of an evolved B will pique his interest? Who knows...I guess I'm not clinging to it. Just a thought.