Lonely Hearts Club V

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Hello Rouly my love! I am doing well. I started to type quite well but that would be a stretch. It's funny how my latest health scare has taken my mind almost completely off of STBXW. I thought that I would hear from the radiologist today but did not. I can only hope that it is a good sign. It's very nerve wracking to sit here and wait for such a significant response. Either there is nothing to worry about and I continue to heal or I am back for more treatment. I have learned to call this living in cancer time. Every minute feels like an hour and every hour feels like a day. The biggest thing is that I do not want more chemo/radiation.

I know you didn't ask Rouky but since you are my best friend I will tell you about my STBXW. She has lost her mind! She is very angry and her communication is very hateful. She looks awfully silly from here now that I am putting things in perspective. I'm not sure why I ever cared that she left. I will be better off if I never even get a date with another woman the rest of my life. It just all feels so stupid and childlike at this point.

One of my sons and his girlfriend are coming to see me this weekend and I am very excited. I love his fiance' as if she were my own child. We are very close and my heart always lifts when the two of them are here. I have recently had a few calls inquiring of my returning to my artistry and I am starting to feel motivated to start working again. I have a ton of work lined up and need to get back into the swing of things. I can make so much more money doing that than I can at my job but the job provides insurance. My energy level is improving and my strength continues to improve.

Pleas keep me in your prayers and I will for you as well!