Ojap's Story

[Ojap]

Mental breaks are good...I think I may have 'backslid' a bit...not sure.

After a 'decent' Thursday - Sunday and productive MC session (at least I thought it was)...I think I had my expectations up...W put them back in place...

I don't think I was DB'ing really well by the time Sunday got here. All the 'good' stuff felt too familiar. I was enjoying it too much. So now...I've got to start the 180 again. I can tell I wasn't in a good place b/c my anxiety and fear of an EA/PA started creeping up again in last 24 hours.

I went for a run today...helped for sure....but reading all the sitch's on the forum just makes me suspect something even more. I need some perspective. Need to practice what I preach.