Need help. Threading water, must learn to swim.

[G8r]

ROFL, TimR, unlucky lady. I needed that laugh. I wonder about pain in the future as well. Mostly whether or not I can bare going through this pain again for my WW. However, I am now better able to relate to the pain my WW expressed to me shortly after BD when I was still begging and pleading with her. I remember her telling me that she still had feelings for me but she didn't know if she could reopen her heart to me. She felt unappreciated, unloved and unattractive as result of my neglect. It didn't matter that I was ready to try because she had shut herself down to me. I better get where she is coming from now. I no longer know for sure how I would respond if she suddenly had an epiphany. Although I still hope for R, I don't know if that is what I really want anymore. I still love my W and I think it is by FAR the best outcome for D3 but is it the best outcome for me. Do I want to risk the pain? I guess that is a question I would love to have rather than thinking in hypotheticals.

No pain, no gain, I suppose. Got to work those emotional muscles.