Not sure where to stand

[Sparkls]

Honestly: terrible. There has just been nothing positive since d-day. No signs that there's even a doubt in his mind. I don't understand how his life could have been so bad here that he doesn't miss any of it. And I know I'm mind reading and catastrophizing. I'm doing a terrible job acting "as if" he's going to come back some day.
But yesterday, I was saying how despite saying he was done to his friend, he hadn't made any moves to get his stuff, or changed our FB status or whatnot. And I wake up to a text about him wanting to get more of his stuff. (I guess "more" isn't "the rest")
Basically, I'm panicking cause I'm not ready for us to be over.