The start of my happiness 4

[Tyler12]

Th am you Zeus and Cwol. I spent a hour or more reading over the boundaries forums from Wonka. It's something I have to implement for my own sanity. I feel like I am varying degrees of detachment and hrieving hourly.

I feel good about my detachment until she contacts me or I see W. It isn't painful like it used to be but it still has an effect on me. Before the weekend I felt like I had moved to acceptance on the grieving path. Then after contact I found myself back at anger and bargaining to a lesser extent.

There are times where I reply snarky like Cwol said, when I do I think it comes from emotion and I often feel regret for how I responded. Is coming off like an a hole productive in DB though? Part of me believes it is counter productive, at the same time that feeling comes from a end goal of R. I need to accept that R is not a option anymore. And second why should I worry about how she views me? W view of me is what led to the sitch and A.

I think I need to focus a lot harder on what I want to do here. Reevaluate my goals and where I want to be in a week, month, year, 5 years...