Btw, tonight after church small group was rough. Cried all the way home on the train and then pulled it together. My friends were with me and surrounding me on both sides but they actually were part of the reason I was crying b/c they just got married, get along so well and seem to be off to a good start. I know them b/c of of H. And I was also wishing that H would come back to church and come to these small groups with me. But like I said, I'm feeling much better now. Just trying to get the energy to go to bed.
Ha, who knew it would take energy to go to bed? Just trying to look forward to the next day and finding a new way of dealing with it all yet again.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."